Before starting this post, I want to point out that this book and/or review mention death, suicide, and drug use. Please continue with caution. This is also a more personal review.
Format: Paperback, 251 pages
Publication: September 22, 2020 by Southern Fried Karma
Synopsis: Depression and suicide are at record numbers in our country. Throwing It All Away gives an uninhibited look at one family’s journey through depression, drug use, and suicidal ideation. It is written by a mother who lost her 20-year-old son to suicide.
The book talks about the son’s struggle to get well, his death, the mother’s indescribable grief and guilt, and the metaphysical spiritual experiences she underwent after his death.
Suicide rips through a family and a community, leaving destruction in its wake. This book shows that suicide is not always planned; it can be impulsive and, with the right help, can be averted.
I wanted to write this review as soon as possible, but I didn’t think that would be too fair; I felt that I needed to think this one over for a few days at least. This book was heartbreakingly beautiful. Not only did it give insight into how suicide can change a family, but it was actually very educational – to me.
The book focuses on the feelings of both Nina and Sam, and even Sam’s father and sisters occasionally. To get into Sam’s feelings, Nina included various documents and writings from his journal and phone. When talking about how his passing impacted the family as a whole, she included writings from her own journal as well as from her daughters’ journals. There were also short notes from close family and friends in one chapter. I thought this was an amazing idea, as it truly captured who Sam was, especially to everyone around him.
From the beginning, Nina says that she hopes the book can help the reader if they themselves are suicidal or grieving the loss of a loved one. For me personally, in a way, it did. Reading about how Sam’s passing impacted everyone around him made me rethink everything I’ve thought. As for the grieving, seeing how Nina found hope and comfort renewed my hope of accepting my mom’s passing. Despite my previous skepticism of mediums, just as Nina had, her experiences with them gave me hope that one day I’ll be able to see and talk to her again.
I truly applaud Nina for the strength I’m sure it took to write this book. I’m so glad she found a way to still talk to and occasionally visit with her son. I’m not sure that she’ll ever see my review, but if she does, I’d like to say thank you.
Disclaimer: I received a free copy of this book via Southern Fried Karma. This did not influence my opinion in any way.
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Meet the Author
Nina Owen has a Bachelor of Arts degree in Journalism from the University of Memphis. This is Nina’s first book. Although writing was her first love, for practicality’s sake, her career has been in the hotel industry where among many other operational and sales tasks, she has been utilized as a content writer. Nina lives in metro Atlanta with her husband, two wonderful daughters, a Great Pyrenees, Sadie, and the family cat, Goose. When not writing, she enjoys playing tennis, hiking, and reading.
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